Well, thanks to a series of unfortunate events last week – a strange vomiting spell and then a stress induced eating frenzy (which really wasn’t that bad, but it wasn’t all that good) – I fell off the wagon of my 10 day cleanse (part of the 24 Day Challenge) for 3 days. I continued to follow most of the prescribed routine, but had some sweets and haven’t run since last Wednesday. It’s not a nice thing to admit, but what’s important to me is the fact that instead of giving up as I would have done in the past, I got back on the wagon and am now on day 11 of my 24 Day Challenge. I’ve eaten well and on schedule (though I missed my run today) and have taken all the great AdvoCare products that carry you through days 11-24. So far, so good and I already feel a million times better than I did when I wasn’t eating as well as I should have been. Tomorrow, I will hit the pavement and get back into my running shoes.
There have been many times in my life when I’ve given up on myself while pursuing my diet and fitness goals and I know I’m not alone. I have often wondered if I have some form of OCD since I have always needed to start at the beginning of a week and do things “perfectly” otherwise, I thought, “It’s not worth doing”. Doing Different for me this time meant starting my challenge on a Friday, not a Monday. It meant allowing myself to fall off the wagon without beating myself up over it and getting back on again as soon as I was emotionally and mentally ready. It meant that I no longer see myself as a failure when I get off track. I’m human, and just as easily as I went off plan, I can get back on. This I can honestly say, given my life long battle with my weight, is a miracle for me. The crime, I have learned, is not in falling off track, but in giving up altogether. So I move forward, one foot in front of the other, one day at a time. I’ve lost a little bit of weight so far, despite my weekend, but more importantly I’m feeling great, and that’s what matters most to me. Tomorrow, it’s back to running this mother.